Happy Birthday Mama!

 Hello Everyone,

 This is a scrap page I made of my sister a few years back of her and her grandson. He is a lot bigger now but still I love these precious photos of her and the baby. I am sorry but I don't have a new layout to share. Even tho today was a lot better than yesterday I still haven't felt the inspiration to scrap a page. I tried one but it wasn't coming along the way I liked so I shut down the computer and decided to read.

 The book that I am reading started out awesome and then stalled. Every page now in the middle of the book is becoming a chore to read. I have a thing about always finishing a book that I start but I don't know about this one. I might have to break my rule and put it away. I need to hit up the library and find some more books.

 Edna, A Great BIG THANK YOU!!!! You sent me coffee for Christmas and I put a box up for emergency's.... Tomorrow is an emergency. I used the last of my coffee today and while I was rearranging my pantry I found my emergency box of Folgers.... Honey you have no idea how excited I was to find that! So I will most definitely have my morning coffee now... and I even had a cup this evening for a treat.

 So what did I do today? Not much. I took the day off so to speak. I did clean the kitchen and put my pantry in some kind of order. I am always saving condiments from fast food places when the kids go out they get burgers or tacos or something and I save the little packs of ketchup, hot sauce and so on. Today I had 4 sandwich bags filled and so I put them all together. We run out of ketchup a lot around here. You never know when you just need a little and I have it all on hand.
 I save a lot of stuff. Napkins, little packs of salt and pepper and you name it. I guess that goes back to my growing up years. My mama always saved little things too. I got that from her.

 Speaking of my mama, tomorrow is her birthday. Happy Birthday Mama... I love you and wish that I could spend one more day with you. I am selfish and wish I could sped every day with you....

 A couple of scrap pages that I did of my mama. She is very missed and tomorrow my niece and her husband will also celebrate their wedding anniversary. They married on my mother's birthday.

 Oh thankfully I have been better today than I was yesterday. Yesterday was a terrible day for me. I guess that we all get that way once in a while. Some days are just harder than others, and my lack of sleep doesn't help and then I have things on my mind and that doesn't help.

 I have been trying to make a decision on using Flickr. To tell you the truth, I am not that fond of it. And the group that I was in was the hardest to leave but there is a lady that really seems to be acting like a bully to me. One minute she is nice and the next thing I know I get an email where she rips me in two.
 I don't need this juvenile type of High School drama. It is stupid and I am not going to continue to give her any reason to punch at me anymore. Just the slightest thing and she will call me out on it, how this offended this person or that person and so forth. I am just done. And I try to be polite to everyone and I am not sorry at all because I didn't do anything wrong.
 I don't have to participate in this kind of thing and I am not going to. I am sure tomorrow I will get a email from her apologizing to me but it isn't going to work this time. I am not going to respond. Let her find a different person to pick on. My picking days are over.

 I should not have to censor every single thing that I say. Not that I say anything bad, but she always finds something and I really wanted to be a part of the group so badly that I was always quick to apologize for what ever it was that she thought was an infraction. So I will just post my pages and leave the rest of it to the drama Queens.

 Wow it is almost 1:00 a.m. so I am going to go to bed now that I am feeling sleepy. I should think that I would have been ready for bed a long while ago but Nathan and I had a really great conversation tonight and spent some quality time together talking and that kind of got me out of my sleepy mood. Not often do we get a chance to have a really good and interesting conversation. He has to work a double tomorrow. He is actually training in the kitchen tomorrow night so he is excited about that, then he is off Tuesday and Wednesday so we might have another conversation as he is explaining to me some Hebrew meanings. He is studying the Bible in Hebrew and the meanings. It has been interesting so far.

 Well good night to all and have a great week ahead.... BB

I Have A Question

 Hi,
 I bought this kit a while back. Many months ago actually and I forgot about it. It was on sale and at a great price. I usually have to save up for one of her kits. This one is by Lynne Anzelc called The World Of Wizards. Thank you for having a look.

 Well off to my question.
 If you turn off your phone, lock your bedroom door, doesn't that usually mean Leave Me The Hell Alone? Instead of knocking who should have the right to find a tool to unlock my bedroom door? You didn't want to know if I was alright earlier when I tried talking to you.... You didn't have time to respond to anything I had to say earlier.... You didn't have time to talk to me when it was important for me to try and have a conversation.... You never take the time to check on me to see if I am alright so what gives you the right to pry into my private space? None that I can see. I might have locked my door for a lot of reasons. I might decide to take a shower and waltz around naked. I might be having a private conversation. I might just don't want to see or talk to you.

 Anyway I am in a mood today. I am in this funk for a lot of different reasons but mainly I just want to hibernate today. I shut off my phone. I locked my door and it is for reasons of my own, but mainly I just want to be left alone today.
 And I most definitely do not want you to break into my room because I am not (A) answering my phone and (B) I have my door locked. I said earlier in the day that I am in hibernation mode and asked to be left alone. So don't give me this BS that you were worried about me as you don't seem to be worried about me any other time.

 I realize I am in a grumpy mood. It has to do with a lot of things. Not just a few things. Mainly I am in need of some privacy. That goes for Cisco too. He can't make up his mind if he wants in or out. So when he wakes up from his nap, I am going to put him and his bed into the other part of the house and come back and lock my door.
 Ohhh your locking Cisco out as well? you ask. Yep.... I am up and down and down and up letting him in and letting him out. He has food and water in here so if he gets hungry or thirsty he has what he needs, but he hears the boys and wants out. I let him out and he finds them not as interesting as he thought and wants back in. Less than 5 minutes later he wants back out. I am not in the mood to play musical doors today so he will have no choice but to hang out with the boys because I need this time to myself.

 I wasn't depressed when I got up this morning but that changed fast. I made Penne Alfredo last night for dinner. I was just going to make garlic toast to go with it but Jonathan wanted green beans and spinach too. Why couldn't he have asked me to do that before I started dinner? But no, he waits until the meal is nearly finished before he asks me for it. I asked him if he would like to finish dinner but that would have meant he would have to get up off his butt and do something. So I made it. Dinner was 45 minutes later than it should have been. I was already late making it to begin with.
 I get up this morning and the first thing Jonathan says to me is "We forgot to put up the food last night. Really ticked me off as if I have food to waste at this time of the month. I didn't say anything tho.

 I did ask... does anyone want coffee... Jonathan said yes so I made more than I normally do. ( I am rationing my coffee to get me thru to pay day). So I made a full pot. He didn't even drink a single cup. So that went to waste as I can't drink old coffee. It leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

 I asked Nathan... If you go to Walgreen's could you use my points card for what I need? His reply was no  I am going to use Jonathan's because I know his number.  I explained that I don't get my points when he uses Jonathan's card and he said... what difference does it make? I tried to explain that I am saving my points for another $10.00 gift card. It really saves me money when I need to use it. Never mind I had to listen to a lecture on HOW hard it was to use separate cards for his stuff and mine too so I said just forget it. He said... No what do you need? I said Nothing that I can't get for myself.

 Karyn has been in and out. Obviously she and Joe had an argument and so she planned to ignore him and I knew that wouldn't last long so I didn't comment. Instead I went about my business, minding my own business. Of course she didn't ignore him as she said as I knew she wouldn't. So she breezed thru my house looking for an onion, wanting this and that and I said... I gave you $40.00 extra dollars this month for extra groceries since you have been helping cook for me. Why didn't you use it wisely? Of course she got her feathers in a bind. So I sent a text to her and said I am shutting off my phone, locking my door, so don't expect me to be good company if you decide that you want to come over again. I got a response back... What's wrong? Does anything have to be wrong? Even when it is it is my business.

 One of my dearest friends always emails me once a day. I haven't heard from her in 4 days. I sent her an email asking if she was alright. I get an email from another friend that said... She is doing alright, but doesn't want to be bothered with any emails from anyone so I can't tell you why but I am taking care of her.
 Yes my feelings are hurt that she didn't just say something directly to me but have someone else pass the message on. I wouldn't have bothered her. Obviously she is communicating with some others... I don't know.

 Then this crap with my daughter Laurie has ticked me off. To much to detail there so I wont but I am not going to play games with her either. I was happy to see the new photos of my grand children. They have gotten so big and it breaks my heart that I can't talk to them. I feel like I have one grandchild left. I have no contact at all with Alex and now Laurie and her husband have cut me out of their lives I can't even talk to them. But am thankful for the pictures.

 I talked to Matthew today. He is heading back to work tomorrow. He has a whole new set of problems to deal with. I could tell he didn't want to talk to me so I gave him an out and said for him to have a safe journey and hope that he has a good work tour. I hung up.
 So I am not sure where this sad feeling is coming from. I shouldn't give a damn about any of it. I am just having one of those days. I expect that tomorrow I will be feeling much more my old self, but today I just need to be alone and deal with my stuff in my own way.

 So on that note, I am getting off and going to go and find something fun to do.... and for me that is a nice hot shower, breaking out a good book and going to bed............ and maybe sleep for a few hours... Talk to you some other day.... BB

Pet Central

 This is a scrap layout  that I made from an image I found on a free site. I put the girl on each side and flipped one of them. The back ground and moon and sun is from a kit I had. I had come across this on Facebook that I had posted a couple of years ago.
 I haven't had time to really scrap lately so I reached into my stash and pulled this one out. I love fantasy art. I also love things that are quirky.

 I have been trying to find the time to come over and update but something always came up. We had a thunder and lightening show two days in a row. We ended up with perhaps a 5 minute rain, but the lightening was pretty fierce so I had to shut down my computer and of course unplug it. One day tho we really had a lot of rain. It was very welcome.

 Other things cropped up too. I had 3 doctor appointments last week and one yesterday. One day I had a doctor appointment and on the way home the car over heated and we broke down on the side of the road. I had asked the driver on the way to the office if the car was running alright because it smelled hot and it also was not putting out cold air from the air conditioner. He said yes it was fine. Well obviously it was not fine.

 We broke down right in the middle of rush hour traffic. Oh and it was so hot and had to wait for another driver to come and pick me up and hoped that he got there before the tow truck did. It was late by the time I got home. I was nearly sick from the heat. I bet I drank 4 bottles of water and for good measure I had had 2 of the electrolyte pop cycles. I did not want to become dehydrated.
 Of course the driver couldn't help that his car broke down.

 Yesterday my driver, a very nice young man waited for me at my appointment because the traffic was so bad. Well I didn't think that it would take so long. Usually I am in and out, but I have been having a lot of pain in my neck and shoulders and so my doctor checked me and made an appointment for me to have an x-ray done because she feels a bulge in the back of my neck.

 I know the cause of it. I was in a car accident about 4 years ago. My girlfriend and I were sitting at a red light at Walmart waiting for the light to turn green and was rear ended. It wasn't a big crash, but it jolted me and threw me forward, the seat belt snapped me back popping my neck. She had already gotten out of the car and I was aware that the pain was bad.

 She got back in the car, the light was green and she drove away. I said "Wait, aren't you going to wait for the police?" and she said "No there is no damage." I disagreed and said, "Well I hurt my neck and you need to file a report". She ignored me. Well I didn't think that the pain was bad enough to go to the hospital, especially since she didn't get a police report or anything.So I went home and put some Ben Gay on it but it didn't get any better so I had to see my doctor and I had an x-ray that showed I had a bulged disc.

 When I talked to her I told her, "You should never leave without filing a police report. Even tho there was no damage to your car, (But there was) you had a passenger in your car and I was hurt. That was when she told me that the reason she didn't call the police is because she didn't have insurance!

 So I have a feeling that the problem is getting worse. She gave me some sample of some cream and called in a prescription and guess what? My insurance covered it. I used it last night and it did help but I am scared to death of having any kind of surgery on my neck. But it is really starting to give me problems.

 Our friend,, Nathan's friend actually, but mine too came over yesterday with a tv that I can use for awhile. He has a smaller one that he said that I can have so he will bring it the next time that he comes. Oh I am not going to know how to act!!!! So today I have to clean my room. I have no choice because I have to have a place to put it. Sooooo I am going to have Nathan move my book shelf into my closet. It will fit there perfectly, and I will have him put the tv here on my desk and I will move my computer onto a stand that I have so I can watch tv and still be able to use my computer.

 Today is his last day off work so he is sleeping right now. I know that it sounds strange, but I don't have a tooth in my head left, I have finally gotten them all pulled but I woke up around 2:00 a.m. with a horrid toothache. They call it phantom pain. I went to the kitchen to get an ice pack and I woke Nathan up. He was tossing and turning anyway and wasn't really sleeping so we talked for a bit and he told me that in his and Jon's bathroom he had some clove oil. So I put some on my gums and it really helped and along with the ice pack. I also took some Tylenol so that helped as well.

 Jonathan is in training today. He will be at the same office Karyn works at, but they will not see each other unless they take a break at the same time or something like that. He was not looking forward to it at all but he just called to check on me. He and Nathan both have really been helping me a lot more and I haven't even had to ask! But they are still not as tidy as I would prefer. I guess that is just how that goes.

 I came across a photo of me and my cat Sampson I am going to share. I had to re-home him when I moved here to Austin. I rented a storage building and moved everything I wanted to keep in to it and that was June 30th. Jonathan's birthday. Of course I started moving all of the packed boxes and such in so it would only be the last big things the day before. Then I cleaned the apartment. I didn't have anyone who could take care of Sampson because I was going to Temple Texas, about an hour and a half from Austin to have my kidney removed. Sampson was a big worry. I couldn't bring him to Jonathan's because of Cisco and a huge pet deposit so it broke my heart to give him away, but a lady I knew had 2 other cats and I would take Sampson over to her place to see how he interacted and he joined the family like he had been born in the litter. They rolled and tumbled and played and she said she would take him. So I loaded all of his toys, his bed that he never used, his scratching post and enough food and litter to last him and her cats a couple of months but I cried my heart out. He was a great cat. I rescued him on a cold and wet January day.  He was so tiny that I used an eye dropper to feed him until he was big enough to eat on his own. Here is a picture of us.

 Isn't he gorgeous? I really love the memories feature on Facebook that allows you to see your memories from years ago. This one popped up yesterday.

 The next one was a picture of my Bandit. Cisco and Bandit were a little over a year apart. Bandit was born July 22nd, two days before Matthew's birthday. Cisco was born the following September the next year.. Not real sure of the date but my birthday is October the 11th so I chose Cisco's birthday for September 11th so I can remember it.

Rest In Peace my handsome Prince. I will always love you!!!! He loved his toys. His favorite was Tweetie Bird. He had them in all colors but the blue one was his favorite. He never chewed them up, just carted them around in his mouth where ever he went and many times we would have to crawl up under the house and rescue them!
 Now Bandit was a big dog. 75 pounds of dog and lots of long fur. He was just beautiful. A Full size bed with 2 humans and Bandit was not an easy feat. Then along came Nature Nicole, But first a couple of pics of Bandit that I found and oh wow, I had to hunt for these. Talk about memories....

 Now isn't he just so handsome. And In My Bed.... I had to wash my comforters a lot... so it was a good thing that I had several sets...

 This is my little girl Nature Nicole. She like all of the rest of the pets were rescued. She was half this size when we found her on the side of the road. She was a mama's girl.

 Nap time!!
 The picture of me and Nature was taken the night before I left to go and have my vascular surgery. She had gotten so big...

The next couple of pictures are not that great, but I have to share them....

 The black dog next is Seymore.... I rescued him from a culvert pipe filled with water and he was drowning because he couldn't get out. He was an awesome dog too and my son Nathan claimed him. They went every where together. But when Nathan left for Texas he became my dog lol. So ok I had 2 humans, Bandit, Nature, and Seymore in my bed.

 The top picture of the brown dog is Brownie. He wasn't mine. He belonged to the people next door but he wouldn't leave and they were not taking care of him anyway. But enough was enough... I had no more room in my bed... LOL...

 Seymore and Brownie had beds next to mine and they finally accepted that. So you see I am very much an animal person. Seymore was a great hunting dog and he was very fond of a man that we knew and the man loved him back. So reluctantly I gave him to this man. They would stop if they were passing by and I was out in the yard. But I could tell that Seymore had a new owner. He would love up on me but I could tell he was not mine anymore. He got a great home.

 I wish that I could say the same about Brownie. I opened the door to go out and there was a coyote in the yard. Brownie dashed out before I could stop him and chased the coyote and a car hit him.. Thankfully he didn't suffer but I did. The man stopped and said I couldn't avoid it. I told him I knew it as I seen it happen.
 When I told the people next door they said "Well he was just a dog"...... I was flabbergasted. He was not just a dog!

 I knew that I wasn't going to be going back home for a long time after my surgery. I had someone to care for my dogs while I was gone, but Bandit ran away. Some say that he mourned for me and they think that he grieved himself to death. I don't know.
 Nature stayed with the man that was caring for her. The last time I saw her she was fat as a butterball. My sister wouldn't let me bring her with me when I went to get what was left of my things. I cried then too.

 I have one more photo to share.  Here is the story. Jonathan chose to go to Phoenix to College. I rode in the semi truck with my husband while Jonathan decided to ride with his cousin and room mate and family.
 We got Jonathan settled into his new apartment and spent the night in a hotel. We had stopped at a restaurant and eaten and everyone of us except Jonathan got sick from the food. It was really bad. So we ended up having to stay an extra day.
 Saying goodbye was so hard. But he was excited to get on with his life and for us to leave so the guys could do what the guys wanted to do and my husband had to deliver his load anyway. So we left.
 It was late late or early early how every you want to look at it, like 3 or 4 in the morning. We stopped at this truck stop called The Tiger Truck stop. They had white Siberian Tigers and you could go and see them.
 Well I wanted to have my picture taken with the cub. From the minute that I walked into that cage, this cub was attached to me. He climbed in my lap, he put his paws on my face so he could lick me. Let me tell you, at first I was taken aback and a bit afraid but I talked to him and loved on him and when it was time for me to go he would not let me out of the cage. He blocked the door and would pounce and whine or whiney roar....
 The owner said he had never seen anything like it before. This cub had never attached himself to anyone before. But he did me. I had to turn towards the door and scoot backwards until they could open the door and let me out.
 In the picture you can see a woman waiting her turn. He wouldn't let her in.... He was mad because he kept putting his paws up to the cage and looking at me, like please don't leave me. I wish I could have stayed.... I wish I could have taken him with me, but Goodness knows how I would have managed to care for him, especially if he got as big as his Papa!

 So I guess that wraps it up for me. I know that this is a very long post, but thank you for joining me on my journey to the past....
 Have an awesome day.......... BB

Tired, Frustrated and Ranting

 This is a page that I did with my friend Rosie's kit called Forget Me Not. I did this page a couple of days ago and I did this one of me yesterday to update my face book profile.

 This was taken at Pappasito's Mexican Restaurant. It was Mom and Son date night. It was awesome. It is an all time favorite place of us but we only go just for a very special occasion. I know that this was taken after Christmas because I am wearing the charm bracelet that Miss Edna made me for Christmas and the necklace that my friend Joyce made me for Christmas.

 Anyway so I have had such a frustrating time trying to work these new scrapbooking sites, trying to decide where I want to be. A part of me wants to just stay at Facebook and forget all of  the rest, but so many good people that I have met over the last years do not use Facebook and don't want to.

 Email is really not an answer because even tho I have their emails, I am not one to sit down and write emails very often. So most of my friends decided to go to Flickr so that is where I went too. I joined a group that one of our friends made for us.  So far so good but it will be better once I get the hang of it.
 As always, there are somethings I like and others that I don't, but that is with all things. There is good and bad with anything. It just takes time, and then I found another place that I seem to like better but in the end I believe that I am just going to make my own scrapbook group on Facebook and people can come and chat and post their pages if they want to and so that is what I think will be a better option for me and I can go and visit the group that I joined to see what everyone is doing from time to time. So the more that I think about it the more that I like the plan.

 Rant time... I joined twitter many months ago. Well I hated it. I just couldn't figure out how to deactivate it. I hated getting all the notifications that filled up my email from people following me that I have no idea who they are, basically robotic followers advertising everything from insurance to dating to sexual aids to food and cooking... I mean the lists just went on and on and on... I turned off the notifications but they still kept coming so it took over an hour and my son to go on to YouTube to watch a video to help me deactivate the account. It was ridiculous how hard it was to get rid of it.
 I did not enjoy it really from the first but I did meet a couple of nice people that I am friends with on Facebook so we keep up there.

 And I am tired.... No reason for me to be tired. I have had plenty of sleep, but I am bone tired. I don't know if it was the endoscopy and then having the teeth pulled and going thru all of that and having a lot of little things pop up that has just left me wanting to bury my head in under the covers and just sleep it off. But I can't. I have way to much that I need to do. Most of it is computer related.

 In Florida I bought a new external hard drive and moved my things off of my computer onto it. Well just checking my digi kits that I bought or my friend Rosie made for us will all be lost when the website shuts down I decided to make sure that everything is backed up the way that it should be. Guess what? All is there but the digi kits. When I try to open those they are just short cuts and no one can tell me how to fix it. ARRRRG  so I am aggravated at that. I have to figure out how to turn pack files into kits that I can put into my personal folder.
 It is going to be a lot of work and has me feeling over whelmed at the moment but I have 2 friends that are going to help me over the phone so we can do it together... so thank goodness I have some technical support there.

 Other news is slim so I am going to go and clean the kitchen. I am making BBQ chicken for supper tonight and I didn't clean the kitchen last night so I better get started.

 I hope that everyone has a better day than I am... Hugs to all....... BB

Dreams and Dreamers

 A page that I did with Edna's QP and background. This is my brother when he was younger, 13 or 14 maybe and the poem is by Ralph Hodgson. I think that it is lovely and reminded me of him so very much.
 Karyn and I were go and see him May 1st, my sisters were planning to go the day after he had passed. We didn't get to say our goodbyes. So to spend just one more day with him would have been so meaningful to all of us.
 There are still days that I just can't believe that he is gone.
 I entered this page in a challenge called Poetry so it would be nice to win but some of the other pages in the challenge are just so over the top that I know I won't win, but this page means a lot to me and that is what counts.

 So Karyn just left and while we had alone time we talked about our dreams. So weird that we had almost the exact kind of dreams. The reality of course is that never in a million years would we be able to carry out these dreams but it was so lovely to have them be so real.
 She dreamed of having a full family reunion at Christmas at a huge huge Lodge in Park City Utah with the Polar Express and carnival for the kids. She did the 12 days of Christmas.
 I dreamed that I bought a very large ranch in Colorado with all kinds of horses and everyone had their very own suite of rooms and activities. Snow capped mountains and warm fires with hot chocolate and a midnight ride under the dappled light of the moon.

 It was great fun talking about it and how weird that we both dreamed of family and special times. Neither one of us had any idea how close our dreams were until we started talking about it. I let her go first as she was so excited to tell me and I just sat there and said... Oh wow... some of the things in our dreams were almost the exact same thing. So we called ourselves the dreamers... lol.
 It is still as vivid now as it was during the night.

 I really thought that by now my mouth would be less sore but that is not the case. I actually think that it is sorer today than yesterday. Especially my left jaw. I am still using the ice packs. They have really helped me a lot. My pain medication has not helped much at all. Not for this. I need to talk to my Pain Management team but I am so sensitive to so much medication I am not sure that they have anything else that will help me. It helps in other ways, but not for dental pain.

 So news is short here. It seems to be that way. I have an early morning doctor appointment for my labs and diabetic coach in the morning. Then on Friday I see my doctor for results. I would rather not have to do any of it but it has to be done and out of the way and next on the list is podiatry and eye exam. I am behind on those and just can't help it since it was hard to fit so much into the last few months.

 We had a huge thunderstorm last night. I didn't even get up and shut down my computer. The thunder and lightening just lulled me back to sleep. I awoke this morning to a gorgeous sunny morning and visit from Karyn.

She is taking Joe's nephew halfway to meet his mom. The other boy wanted to come this week too so they were going to exchange brothers but the office made such a big deal of the one being here without notifying the office they just said no more kids right now. It was boring for the kid since he couldn't use the pool and stuff. They sure are enforcing a lot of rules and I guess it is because of summer. He had to have a letter stating that they had guardianship over him for the time he was here to be able to use the pool. I know that it is for his safety tho so no one made a big deal out of it except the 3 day rule.
 Our lease says 7 days that a guest can be here without notifying the office. Now they say it is 3 days so Karyn took her lease to the office and said show me where... well they couldn't so he got to stay the entire week and next month the other one can come.

 We were hoping that the rain would cool us off but instead everything is just steamy and hot. I am looking forward to Autumn. It is just too hot to be out trying to do anything fun and even sitting out on the patio is just miserable. At least this week at night we are to be in the mid 70's so are happy for that. Mosquitoes pose a problem but so far not as bad as last year.

 Think that I will go and have something to eat, or try too. then it is another ice pack... Take care to all.... BB

Dentures Coming Soon.... Short Post!

 Hi to everyone,

 Kyra this is a throwback page that I did a year or so ago. These are the dolls that I have been looking for. I got the image from one of the free sites. But I loved doing this page and I put mine up and then I found that another lady had done hers with the same image. It was really strange since the group challenge was from people all over the world for someone to do a page almost like mine. Of course she didn't have the dolls! Still it is one of my favorite pages. I took mine down as she had posted hers first and we had a good laugh over it.

 On the 11th of July I went and had the endoscopic surgery. The good news is that the stomach ulcer has healed. I still have to take the medication for another 2 months and he might change it to something else so my body doesn't get to use to it and stops working. The stomach and the esophagus is still inflamed, but the ulcer has healed!!!
 The next day, yesterday on the 12th I had all of the rest of the teeth pulled. I don't have it hanging over my head anymore. Now the shots were very painful. Oh I cannot even begin to tell you how painful they were but let me tell you this oral surgeon was doing his very best to to be gentle. Not like the one who just jabbed the needle in and walked out.
 He came back and added topical and then waited and came back and tested the numbness and gave me more injections but they were not as painful and he even massaged the medication in to help spread it out. I can't tell you what a difference this man had with me compared to the last 2 I have seen.
 He was very compassionate and kind and as gentle as he could be and he talked to me throughout the procedure. Still the shots hurt. But they could have been a lot worse than what they were without his kindness and he made sure that all the nerves and roots were deadened before he began to extract. He will be getting a very nice thank you note from me for sure.
 I go back in 3 weeks to begin the impressions if the gums are healed. If not I have to wait another 2 weeks and go back again but hoping that by the time that my birthday rolls around I will have my dentures!

 Ice packs have been my friend. I am going to go in a few minutes and rinse my mouth and lay back down again.

 I had a few things to share but Google will not let me so I will just close for now... Have a great day to all.... BB

Hello Again I have Been Scrapping!

Hello I hope that this finds you doing well tonight. It is 6:30 pm. here. I have dinner in the oven, and I am making Southwestern Rice and I have some kind of vegetable that I will make along with some beans and call it supper.

 This scrap page is called Her Greatest Power that I did with a kit that I downloaded just a bit ago. It is beautiful. It is called Sultry Sapphire by my friend Rosie. I am so lucky to be a part of the group that I am in. The ladies are just so awesome and sweet and helpful. Rosie makes these beautiful kits as freebies for the members. This is the second one of the birthstone gems. The first one was Ruby. I can't wait to see what she is working on next but Rosie has MS and it is hard for her so we are all very supportive of her and just love it when she surprises us with these kits.

 I have been busy. Yes indeed I really have. Arranging for doctor appointments to be rescheduled due to a lack of transportation but really it is alright on my end because I was so booked the week of the 10th to the 14th so I rescheduled the appointments for Monday and Friday for a week later. That gives me the 11th and 12th to recuperate from the endoscopy on the 11th and then dental extractions on the 12th.

 July 3rd I went to the post office and sent off some important mail to my son Matthew. He needed to have it so I over night'ed the package. It was suppose to have been there on July 5th by 3:00 pm. Well it didn't make it and they said that if it didn't arrive to keep my receipt and I would be refunded. So Karyn took me to the post office and the lady was so very helpful and refunded my money.... YES and then Karyn and I headed to Arby's for a quick lunch and after that we went to my doctor's and dropped off my release for my dental clearance.

 Joey my son in law showed up yesterday with a gorgeous cloak for me. It had fringe on it and he and I talked while he knotted the fringe to keep it from unraveling.He also tried to help me over the phone with the Post Office much to both of our frustrations. Why can't you just talk to a real person? Why do we have to listen to a machine that will not allow you the option to speak to anyone? Anyway Karyn called in the middle of our struggles to get the automated recording to verify the tracking number and I explained to her what we were doing and she said she would take lunch early and come and get me and Joe.

 After we got all of the things done, then Joe and I spent the rest of the afternoon together and had a great time conversing. Karyn made dinner last night because my leg has been hurting and my side as well. Actually while I was at the doctor dropping off my paper to be filled out, I mentioned that I thought that I had another UTI or Kidney infection so I left a sample while I was there. It was wonderful that she cooked for us and then they left around 8:00 last night and I went to bed.

 In the mean time I am helping my sister. She is making a photo book for our honorary sister Kay for her birthday in October.. Since we have known Kay for close to or over 30 years, she is family. We adopted her... we got her... so we claim her as a sister. Linda is making her the photo book and I am providing the scrap pages. Now Linda has all the ones I have done of them over the years and this is a vacation book so I am scrapping the pages. I am done with my part because now Linda has a lot to work with plus she is going to do one page with my scrap page and the next just photos and journaling. I will show you the last 5 scrap pages that I have done. I cant share these on FB because Kay will see them.

 Kay at an Aquarium somewhere.... I love this photo of her....

 I have no idea where they are, but I am thinking that they were in Jamaica. I could be wrong tho.

 This is Kay on the beach somewhere wonderful!!!!

 These are my blood sisters. Linda on the left and Susie on the right. I believe this one was taken in the Netherlands on an Island called Curacao. They loved it so much that they have been their twice!!!

 Now I know where this one was taken... South Carolina. Kay and Susie had to board their cruise ship and spent a day or two in Charleston South Carolina where they toured old plantations that had survived the Civil War. They were in a horse drawn carriage. I love this page.

 I talked to Linda and she said I can stop making the pages now because she is also going to use all of the other ones that she has saved over the years that I have made of all 3 of them. She wants to see how many more she needs or if she even needs anymore.
 I know that Kay is going to love this photo book and I know that this is what I am also getting for my birthday. I had a choice. A photo book or a blanket. I chose the photo book. Me and books go hand in hand.

 I guess that this just about wraps it up. I think that I will post my Sapphire page on FB and eat dinner and go to read for a while. Have a great weekend to all........  BB

4th Of July 2017

 Hi and Happy 4th of July to my American friends and family,

 This is my page for today. This is Edna in Florida. I took this photo the first evening that I was there sitting out on her lovely porch. It is one of my favorites of her so I used it for my Celebration. We tried to watch the fireworks every night that we were there but missed a couple of the shows but for the most part, I really enjoyed the fireworks. I just do not enjoy them on July 4th.

 My dad died July 5th and I associate the 4th of being at the hospital with him every year. No matter how many times I say that I won't do it this year, I always do. Then Christmas is hard too because my mama died December 16th. Christmas is made easier because my mother loved Christmas so the joy and sadness is mingled. Bittersweet. I can still see the twinkle in her eye as she put out decorations and wrapped her gifts.
 She had  a collection as well. A Santa that played 2 or 3 songs, reindeer that danced, snow globes that changed color, angels, and snow men. She had all kinds of Christmas trees, from little ceramic ones to a big ceramic one that she put out every year and villages as well. She loved Christmas and so for her, knowing how much she did love the holiday makes it a lot easier for me.

 I tried to make today a good day, but it just didn't happen. I fought off one panic attack after another all afternoon. They just hit me out of the blue. I don't know where they came from or the trigger but I do know that it was really a hard day, but I made the best of it.
 I took a long hot shower, shaved my legs and put a long acting conditioner on my hair. I had a movie that I wanted to see and just couldn't get into it. I gave it about 15 or 20 minutes and I had enough of that so I put it on something a little happier. I crocheted and then I scrapped this page and that is really about it. Just keep looking at the clock waiting to take my night meds and go to sleep. These panic attacks truly drain me.

 I am so sorry that I am so far behind in my blog. I try, really I do, but there is just nothing to blog about. Or at least I don't feel that there really is. In fact the whole computer thing lately is just boring to me. I have a few sites that I go to and lately there has been nothing but politics and I am sick of that for sure. Every time I turn on my computer it is some thing glaring at me about what the President is doing. I don't care. If it was something important then I would care, but the crap that is being broadcast is just so stupid.

 You can't change who is in office or what they are doing. So why the obsession with a President that tweets? I for one do not care. And who cares where Chris Christi spent his 4th of July weekend? Now granted if Americans can't go to the beach, I think that he should have changed his plans and not have gone, but he did and so what? He does have a beach house on a private beach so..... He went, and he apparently didn't care that his Govt. shut down the state of New Jersey and closed all parks and beaches and museums and other places, but why keep it going and going and going? We need to be concerned about the real things happening in our country, not some Politician going to the Beach and a President that Tweets!

 I have a whole lot of doctor appointments to keep me busy this coming week. On the 10th I have morning labs and then meet with my diabetic coach. On the 11th I have to be at the Endoscopic Center at 5:00 am for the scope to check my ulcer. The next day on the 12th I have to be at the dentist for the removal of more teeth. 3 I hope and then I have the 13th at home and then another appointment on the 14th for my 4 month follow up on my labs and I think that I am going to ask her to cut back on some of my medication.

 I am sorry that my blog is so down trodden. I guess that my mood is showing thru so I am going to take my leave and go and find something else to do. I know that this will work it's self out on it's own. I just need to give it time.

 Please have a great week, or what is left of it. Until next time BB