A Panic Attack Is Not Good...

 Hi,
 Well once again I found myself out of the loop of trying to blog. It has been a trying week for me. This morning I guess it finally caught up with me. At 5:01 am I awoke with my heart racing, my body shaking, not to mention drenched in sweat.
 I recognized the makings of a panic attack. Not good and now I am calmer thanks in part to my medication but at the same time I also think that it also has to do with the fact that I am not having coffee this morning, but some soothing chamomile tea.
 Who knows why or when these things occur. It totally caught me off guard. If I was dreaming with strange dreams again then I don't remember what they were about. That might be a good thing. But I have had some really strange dreams lately.
 I have been busy with some things that I haven't wanted to deal with. That in it's self is enough to cause an episode. Triggers that I am not totally aware of, but at the same time triggers none the less.
 And I have been sick. I have bouts of being so sick I cant get out of bed to bouts of throwing up my toenails to bouts of low grade fever then I am ok and then the cycle repeats it's self.
 The doctor (What does he know is my sentiments at the moment) call it a Viral Syndrome. What does that mean exactly? I have had it several times. My best guest is that it is a virus that no one knows what it is but that it will go away on it's own when it is ready to.

 I had to share my little Halloween Seasonal Witches that I came across from the internet. I really haven't felt up to scrapping many pages lately. I did one of my grand daughter this morning and sent it off to her mom.
 I can't believe that in 3 days my little girl will be 2 years old! I wish that I could share her pictures with you here but I promised that I would not share them over the internet for safety reasons. Which I understand perfectly. I mean really in this day and age I can understand the significance of safety when it involves our most precious children.

 I did 2 scrap pages for AudrajScraps this week. They will be in the stores sometimes today I think so I will do my pubs on them when I get the okay to do so. I had a lot of trouble with one of them. The Gothic Girl/Halloween mask. I just couldn't find the right image or the ones that I chose just didn't go well with what I was working with. But it is done and over and I hope that I can get back into my scrapping with some motivation. Sometimes life takes over and it is not so easy to be able to do what I want to. Especially when I am working on pages for someone else. I have dropped off of most of my teams. I still have AudrajScraps and I am not sure if I am even still on the other 2 or not. I haven't done pages in ages for them.

 I have been doing a few other things rather than being on the computer. I have been working on my house a little at a time. I am beginning to be able to find the kitchen items which is a big plus. Now I have to get some hangers for my pictures that I want to hang on the wall. The nail less kind. I found some that I like that is not really expensive and was surprised that on the back it said that they can hold up to 9 pounds. Wow I am impressed. But it just does not make sense that some adhesive and 2 strips of Velcro can hold that much weight. Thankfully I only have 2 pictures that I might have a little reluctance to hang. One is a beautiful picture of a red poppy in the center with small mirrors as accent and a black frame.
 The other is a black and white orchid in a black frame. It is gorgeous and it is large. I have actually been thinking of turning that one into a canvas print. I think that it would be gorgeous. I have several places that I have checked and the prices are really good.

 I thought that I had broken my favorite lamp. I accidentally knocked it and my fan off of my desk and it flashed a big huge red and white light. That was the end of my lamp or so I thought. I changed the bulb but it didn't do any good and then this morning I looked at it and I thought, maybe the bulb that I changed it with might be bad. So it was a good excuse to start unpacking a few boxes marked and labeled as MOM and I found a new package of bulbs. I inserted one and Bingo... My favorite lamp is working again. Whew, I really loved this lamp because of the extra light it gives me at the computer. And I found some other goodies too. It is always nice to find old favorites that were packed away.

 I found some of my moms costume jewelry that had been packed away for several years. Inside are a lot of memories in that small box. It has been a win win for me scoring mom's jewelry and the new light bulbs. I found some of my markers to color with. I just wish that I could find my pencils. I know that I will come across them soon. It is just taking this one step at a time.

 I transferred my medications to a new pharmacy and it looks like there is a problem because I just got a text saying to call for details why medication is not ready for pickup. Hmm and I have been on hold for 8 minutes..... Ok well I guess I better get off here because I am slowly slowing down and losing my energy. Time for some breakfast and I finally got to talk to someone that said that they had to order my medication and that it would be ready for pick up after 3:00 pm today. So that is alright. I was expecting something like an insurance problem.

 Have a great day everyone. I am certainly going to try and make mine wonderful.... BB